Thursday, March 02, 2006
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"When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the door which is opened to us" - Alexendar Graham Bell
*btw i have compiled a list of 999 inspirational quotes..feel free to ask from me i have the soft copy which i compiled myself =]
This is gonna be my last formal entry...after which this blog is officially closed.
Ytd...1st march.. was the release of our final A lvl results... the one which all of us had been anxiously waiting for..but for me.. i thought i was pretty much prepared to receive the results..but i was wrong. I had to return my blazer along with the rest before i could get back my result slip. In the morning met up with the usual guys..played awhile and talked like the good old times in njc. In the hall arn 2 pm..hearing mrs cheng making her usual lame boring speech.. i couldnt care less but kept wondering and started to feel worried about my results.. i had no idea whether i did enough to catch up on my studies.. after so much shit that happened..It was my turn..my CT allowed me to take a glance at my results... i was totally shocked..it was very much worse than i expected to do... i tried damn hard to hold my back thoughts and feelings and to cool myself down.. i was damn sad inside..i could feel tears trying to come out of my eyes.. i tried damn bloody hard to hold it back.. and ppl kept asking abt my results made it much worse for me.. i couldnt talk...as i speak im bound to cry out...wtf man..its so unlikely of me to be that sad...but i was that sad ytd..i just didnt felt like talking abt it and trying to put it aside..but i couldnt as much as i tried..the words from my mouth indicate clearly that i was crying..i could only just shake my head and hope others would understand me..the grades on my result slips.. is a total eye sore to me... i knew i would be able to do much better myself..and didnt expect that to affect me that much.. i really have only myself to blame.. to have wasted time, energy and attention on totally worthless things and ppl... if i should've known things earlier..things wouldnt have turned out so bad for me...the results i got.. was so far from what i wanted...when i first step into NJC...i was totally down ytd.. really sorry to those which i daoed.. i know alot of my friends tried to ask me my results..but i daoed them... sorry for my bad attitude.. i was afraid as i speak.. i will just cry out and embarass myself... actually to think abt it.. my results arent really that bad..but to me.. i find it rather a pity ...thats why im sad...pls dont ask me further or try to console me.. there's no need to.. i know things better myself... i really should start thinking for myself from now on.. my future.. which i didnt really do so in the past... some of my friends who i know... really contributed alot to the school.. yet attain bad results.. i really feel sorry for them...yet i really appreciate their undying effort towards making njc a better place for everyone.. alot of ppl are celebrating..though there's nothing much for me to celebrate haha...anyway i really wanna congratulate all my friends who have done their best and did well for their A lvls =]
Ytd night i started to think back.. my past 2 years in njc..i could still remember the first day i step into njc...the first non-friend person i talk to... the first friend i made..the first classmates i have...it was like a total new life ever since i left sji.. and i told myself i wanna make it big and do my best in here and make my life in njc a fulfilling one. I remember my council election speech very clearly...lol it was an analogy of life in NJC: started out like this... i say NJc is very much like a cooking pot in our household kitchen...every year.. a new batch of fresh students comes in..let's call them a different brand or flavour of instant noodles...which comes in a packet... the boiling hot water signifies our stress environment ...the flame from the stove...external factors like our teachers who help us...inside each packet of instant noodles...we have the main bulk of the noodles...and most importantly.. the satchet of seasoning or flavour powder...at the start of each year.. everything comes together... so living a life in njc.. is like preparing a bowl of noodles...but plain noodles isnt nice without the flavour...and it is in every batch of new intakers, there are these group of special people..who really do the extra and make the difference..and spice up the life of everyone and of the school...they are the "seasoning powders" of njc...without them.. everything will be dull and boring...and i said clearly.. i want to be part of the seasoning powder satchet..just one grain of it... one grain cant add much flavour..but with many of us.. grains... combine.. we make a difference..so give me a chance.. to spice up ur life... thats why i joined council..i wanted to lead a different life in njc...
i never regret joining the 37th student council.. i really say that it is the best there is... we are totally great.. in all we do.. though they are times we dont see eye to eye.. alittle compromise sets things right... many things we face conflicts..but we all pull through in the end..everyday was full of life for me and the rest..but we all wish to bring life to our fellow school mates as well.. we do our very best to make njc a happening school and enthu environment...but sadly there are people who dont share the same wishes as us... some ppl really have biased views against us.. as if we are against them or something..but after all.. we are all students.. we arent some crazy slaves driven by our teachers....we help drive the school...and i tell u..its not easy task maintaining a bridge between the teachers and students... we are like the middle man... lol we take all the shit from both sides.... and we process them and make it turn out well..its hard work..but we all enjoy doing it..its nice being a middle man of the school..cuz u tend to know many secrets ...lol both from the students and from the admin... many things to mock at too lol..what i can say is that.. being in council was wonderful... but the major thing i sacrificed the most was my academic studies... though my background was rather good..i could not bring out the best potential in me... cuz i couldnt get myself to study... even after stepping down...i couldnt study... bothered by too many things.. the only regret i had was that i was unable to focus on study..and think for myself..sometimes i find myself... thinking for others more than myself...in the end..i lose out in any competition...its time for me to really start thinking for myself... though sometimes i find it quite a selfish act...especially when u do things by sacrificing others for ur own sake... i really hate that kind of attitude... ppl who only think for themselves...always think they're right and only want things their way... and couldnt care less for how others feel and whether their actions affect others... i will definitely not be that way... sadly i came across such ppl in my life... really affected me badly... but i was unable to get myself focus on my main work... thats why i died so badly for my A lvls... gladly not everyone had the same fate as me... it really sux i tell u... it really seemed as if.. that year.. i was being cursed or sumthing.. everything was just turning against me... and i didnt start to care for myself..and in the end.. i lose out badly in everything..but anyway... i can say that in the end.. after so much things have happened... i never regret coming to njc.. and joining council... it really made my life fulfilling..as well as the people around me... well perhaps i could've known my classmates better..thats one thing which i didnt quite do well...cant really say i did a perfect job in njc... but i tried my best as much as i could... though i think i could've done better..anyway.. its time i put my past behind me..but im sure to bring all the good memories with me along in life... all the lessons learned...be it in a painful way or easy way... i will never forget them.. really thank all the people who trusted me and helped me along the way...though there are people whom i really wished that our lives would not have crossed...really hope i wont come across such people in life...really wished i had never met them at all i say....just blame my bad luck bah... anyway read abit on some horoscope stuff.. which coincides alot of things which happened to me last year... this year is gonna be a good one for me.. turn of luck.. i will do my best in NS.. i may have failed in doing well for my A levels..but it isnt the end of my life.. but rather a beginning of my real life... i may have abit of disadvantage...but i can make my mark. Hope i can get the course which i desire..which is architecture..kinda lame for me cuz i take science subjects yet wanting to take an art related course..but anyway it has always been my childhood ambition..need to find out more about architecture course...so anyone who knows quite abt it pls tell me thanks =p. Well alot of things i've done in njc...isnt recorded or recognised..but one thing's for sure.. i know it.. and my friends know it.. and i dont desire the entire population to recognise my achievements.. i dont have to things extra to attract any attention like some ppl..who are so overachieving..and really compromised their friendship with others...hope this kinda ppl really change their attitude when they go on to working life. I was glad i was able to do my best in some things and helped my closest friend around me... including saving his life...(but he still owes me $30 bucks grrrr) u better return me ! All the best to all my friends i've made in njc...really glad to know u all...or know u guys better.. hope to see all u nice ppl again. ORA ET LABORA, Service with honour =]
*This blog is closed* happy reading ...hope we meet again =) - Heng Wee -
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Tuesday, February 14, 2006
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what a lousy vday for me =/
HeNgnuTz|7:46 PM|
Thursday, February 09, 2006
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Wa Jie (Disintegrate) - Nan Quan Mama & Jay Chou (translation)
The afternoon when we were talking and laughing
The sound of the bell has been stopped
The sound of the wind lays as a temptation
I sit alone in the corner
Without you accompanying me
Even loneliness would laugh at me for being too down
The chimney beside the square
Your face is covered with the smoke
I silently memorize your softness
Drinking heated beer
This pretty scene
Would it only appear in stories
Behind your back
Time would take the past away
Time would take the scene away
Without thinking, not letting go of memories
Really want to hold your hand again
Hold the softness you give me
After crying tears still don't stop flowing
Behind your back
Time would take the picture away
Time would take the scene away
Without thinking, not letting go of memories
Really want to hold your hand again
Hold the softness that used to be here
After crying tears still don't stop flowing
Meet the rainbow
After the rain
The rainbow would appear at the corner of the street
After all the tears has dried
There will be a rainbow
HeNgnuTz|1:29 PM|
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
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i just cant believe it... put my trust on a faggot and that ruined my entire J2 life....i was right all along not to trust anyone easily heh.. well done... he can continue to act all he wants bah... can go win oscar awards man seriously... but nobody's gonna film him.... i dont have to act or pretend nothing's going on.. life isnt any movie at all...why do we even have to act infront of our friends? wtf man..he wants to join police force ? lol cant even fucking think for others and only for himself.... and want to serve the public ? The day he stepped into the police force with that kinda attitude... will be the down fall of singapore police force.. i despise you. So glad i dont see him any more...fucking spoil my happy days...
HeNgnuTz|10:03 AM|
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
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i am sad... yet happy... i cant decide what im feeling now.....
HeNgnuTz|10:21 PM|
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sometimes i just feel that im a failure....i cant even make friends with one single person....
HeNgnuTz|7:44 PM|
Thursday, February 02, 2006
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well its 2nd Feb now...collected quite a number of hong baos..havent really started counting them yet hahaz.. any cny is about to be over soon...and recently i just realised something... something which may have some link to my bad luck last year..hahaz.. it all started last year...cant remember which day was it.. i did wrote down the incident which happened at the fateful day that may be the thing which affected my luck...written down in the council log book...the day when my wallet fell into the LT 5 toilet bowl lol... the main thing is that my lucky charm was too wet and had to be thrown away..its one small like ang pow -shaped like red paper stuff with a coin inside..suppose to be my year's lucky charm.. every chinese new year..my mum always bring me to the temple and get a new charm..on the charm had 4 chinese letters...alot of the charms are placed inside a huge bowl and i had to pick one.. every year.. i always picked a good one..the one with the best blessings and words on it..it just so happened that day... of that stupid moment i dropped my wallet..i didnt have any of that "luck" with me anymore..its hard to believe all these crap i said..lol but it really had some connection or what so ever... it was really since then... all my problems start to set in for me.. i began to feel alot of stress..and didnt manage to cope well..cant concentrate in study...always dozing off in classes...and later on more problems.. really the worst year of my life.. zzz im not really a superstitious guy..but this is what happened to me.. well on this year first day of cny..went to took another of the charm.. as usual.. got a good one again this year..haha better no lose it again.. im dont wanna afford risking another bad year for myself lol.. my attitude towards ppl and my friends was really bad last year.. i didnt have much patience..get irritated and frustrated easily.. shut myself up.. really not myself.. but for now ..im beginning to feel much better.. being myself more.. and i somewhat changed abit.. started to enjoy reading books lol..which i nvr done before..whenever i feel bored or abit sad... i just pop some books to read.. i felt much better..now i feel that i have alot more patience now ..haha..i think ppl do really change.. after some events ..well for me..i think i did changed alittle =) i feel more optimistic than ever ...really looking forward to my ns life.. im sure its gonna be a good one haha.. i love regimentational lifestyle =p heard A lvl results gonna be released soon... =/ im prepared for the worst already... a lesson well learnt for me....
HeNgnuTz|12:37 AM|
Friday, January 27, 2006
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its chinese new year's eve today...and im feel very sick now..zzz flu..sore throat..my bro and my sis as well.. haiz..what a time to get sick.. cant continue my training and exercise also... zzz mebe go see doc later... last time still in njc... i never bothered to see doc even if i was sick lol .. always recover like 2 weeks later.. have to tong the terrible feeling.. just cant concentrate on doing any work bah..zz now i just need more rest.. haiz.. time is passing so quickly... so far this year has been a good one for me..so far so good haha =] i just need to learn to be more patient..and wait for good things to come.. i was too impatient in many things the previous year.. now i need to learn how to wait and camp lol .... await for good luck to bestow upon me bah...anyway come across this lame question...why does cai shen (God of Wealth) not reply u when u talk to him ? Cuz...Cai shen "DAO" cai shen "DAO" cai shen "DAO" wo de da men kou ! lol if u still dont get it.. u can go bang ur head against the wall..lolsorry pradeep if u need translation lol =p anyway wish everyone a prosperous chinese new year 2006 first =] to my friends have fun in ns i'll join u guys soon ..to those still same as me hvent enlisted let's continue to have fun and relax lol ...to the juniors who are still studying in njc... study hard, work hard and of cuz dont forget to play hard and ur efforts will definitely be paid off this year =] shall change my skin some other day..mebe next week... zzzz
HeNgnuTz|2:33 PM|
Thursday, January 19, 2006
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zzz just woke up... lol damn late.. =/ everything seems so quiet to me these days... almost everyone already in tekong except me and a few others.. few more months to go...started to train liao haha..still looking for a nice book to read..=/
think of changing my skin again. haha
HeNgnuTz|1:15 PM|
Saturday, January 14, 2006
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bah....everytime when im in a bad mood or depressed...often show very bad attitude to the rest...can no longer control...zzz real sorry guys... haiz..so far the start of the year appears to be good...but at the same time.. doesnt seem to turn out very well either...=/ been trying hard to keep myself happy...but certains things just make me feel a little disappointed...nvm...im sure things will get better.. hopefully...anyway.. orientation ...stalia estrellas finally over ...been back in sch just to play badminton wif the rest haha (actually there's another reason why i felt like going back sch....=/ )...didnt really join the fun in orientation... just felt that we were out of place lol...we feel too old i guess..anyway is the j1s and j2s turn to have fun.. which we had our turn last two years...just watching the next batch of njcians enjoy themselves... we feel contented already..everything makes us recall abt our past 2 years in njc...mass dance... station games..war games... dance party... bbq nite...it was great back then.. hahaz but kinda boring...just to sit and watch ....haiz..if only dc and the rest were still around... mebe we could've all done something crazy during this orientation...now that orientation is over... better start to continue my plan in the next 3 months...need to find some books to read... wonder if anybody got any recommendation ? haha pls gimmeee.. or lend me ur books if possible =p ...gonna continue to do some more self reflections too...
though i didnt get any chance to talk to her... but i really feel happy for her.. that she had enjoyed orientation =] will really take much time.. before we can really start talking as friends again..=/ but im sure that time will come =]
HeNgnuTz|1:21 AM|
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
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Was waiting for time to pass at busstop at the evening outside njc busstop.. (cuz i forgot to bring my house key...nobody at home)...watching cars zoomed pass the road...skies began to darken ..anyway was flipping thru my wallet.. felt bored..and i came across this note in my wallet...a yellow piece of paper...on this paper was written in bold letters : "
Remember, Effort is only fully rewarded when one refused to give up"... This words struck me deeply...it was given by my chem tutor last year before my A lvls...miss jessie koh.. she was very nice and was one of the very few people who believed in me...really appreciated all her help and her message of encouragement.. hahz....njc..really have nice teachers i must say..not all are as bad as we think...i actually feel fortunate to have teachers like mr davidson, miss koh, mr teo ...i think they are one of the best teachers around in njc..if only all the teachers are like them or almost like them..njcians would have a more meaningful time in njc..anyway... that above sentence...im sure it will definitely help me in the future to come...whenever i feel down..just a look at those words..will surely perk my spirits up haha..i hope these words do help u guys too in the future to come.. bear these words in mind =] service with honour
HeNgnuTz|10:55 PM|
Monday, January 09, 2006
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if u all havent really notice... the only times when i ever blog is when im very bored... or when i feel depressed or upset =/ so this blog is kinda sad one lol..haiz.. start to also take note and recall... all my problems started since the end of 2004... the start of 2005... which i started to blog....=/ sometimes being too happy all the time.. isnt really a good thing... others cant really tell the times when u are really sad or disappointed.. it somehow feels alone... being that way =/ no one to reach to... when u really needed someone by ur side... just to listen to u.. or what..
anyway...today was the proper start of orientation 2006 njc...hahaz...the atmosphere really reminds me of the past... stupid pradeep came late again.. was in sch arn 7am.. waiting like an idiot in the canteen alone...so many ppl in different secondary sch uniforms..lol the sight never fails to amaze me again..well watched the walkining of the ogls... solaris..known as schiara now... very lame..but interesting as compared to the rest..think they done quite a good job there ahaha... just a different kinda of atmosphere they bring out compared to us... played badminton ...alot of badminton... at a point of time i felt as if my arms were breaking off.. felt some intense pain... zzzz my shoulder joint... wrist... mebe i stressed my strokes too hard or something.. or im doing the wrong way haha...watching them teach mass dance again.... at first wanted to learn..but suddenly lost interest... seems weird.. most probably because i felt too old to mingle wif the crowd lol.. the rest feels the same as well.. but anyway watching them do the mass dance..is entertaining enough for me.. hahaz..really missed my orientation 2004 and 2005...it was great fun =] now just hanging around in sch... more of a sightseeing experience rather than joining the rest...
everytime i see her... she always seem so busy =/ sometimes i really wish that i could help out in anyway...sometimes i really wish that there's time for us to just have a little chat or so =/ but it seemed there isnt any opportunity...sometimes i feel that she's trying to avoid me or sumthing...i really dont know...haiz... if i just sit down and do nothing... nothing's gonna change for sure...so before its too late...i better do sumthing...at least try to..
HeNgnuTz|11:43 PM|
Friday, January 06, 2006
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6 days have just passed since the start of this new year.. so fast...been back in sch these days to play badminton... zzz one by one.. all my fellow brothers left me ..lol going ns...alot of them enlisting very early in jan... only me.. and a few others.. who got late enlistment in april...got roughly 4 months left till i get enlisted...well next week will be fun week for orientation.. most prob going back and see... not really very keen in joining the activities.. just feel too old lol. but watching the young ones have fun.. really brings back good memories of the past =] just watching them play and laugh.. i somewhat feel abit happy.. but these days getting more boring... among the few of us who have late enlistment... have other committments... pradeep.. obviously spend time with his gf...brent also lol... derrick yc.. mapling lol..go back school.. i somewhat felt alone =/ feel abit sian..really alone..all by myself bah.. haiz.. i dunno how am i gonna last the next 4 months.. but i roughly thought abt what to do already.. next week most prob just crash orientation.. after which..
1. Start going library borrow some books to read. Which i never done before lol. Most probably borrow some books regarding philosophy or what sort
2. Training up for ns
3. Checking out details for the courses in Uni
4. spend more time outside home
5. __________sumthing sumthing (really dont know about this long term issue =/ haiz....i feel lost )
wonder how the rest doing in ns now.. haha heard got good food there.. =]
HeNgnuTz|11:30 PM|
Thursday, January 05, 2006
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If just feels great to be back in Njc again =] hahaz
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Sunday, January 01, 2006
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HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL !!! =]
Finally this dreaded 2005 year is over ! and here comes 2006 haha... pretty sure this gonna be a good year for me =] anyway just reached home ...now its about 2.33 am... yc and the rest decided to stay at hotel rendevous overnight haha... town and cityhall area is a total chaos man..damn crowded...other days we heard of cars running over people..tonight was people running over cars lol...people are overwhelming the traffic.. and the cars cant do anything...jaywalking everywhere..cars cant move...haha wrong place at a wrong time to drive man ..anyway today being nagged by the rest then decided to join them in town to spent new years eve outside...met deep shaun yc derrick yang joe desmond in town.. ate at swensens.. then afterthat a few of us went to the new lan centre at cine..OMG it rocks man..some e-gaming center..totally new and cool place at 9 storey cine...just opened..played cs source for my first time lol.. cant get use to the graphics..too realistic sia.. and hard to see people hiding in dark corners.. played there for like 2 hrs.. then later went to basement lvl foodcourt eat abit..in the end decided to pang seh yee leng;s party =p headed to fullerton watch fireworks.. the crowd was huge...but the fireworks was spetecular... its been awhile since i ever last seen fireworks at close proximity =] really wished that someone was watching with me.. wonder how the person is doing now on this new year;s eve and first day of 2006 =/ anyway this is my first time that i'm out of home for new year's eve and stayed for the new year haha..used to spent the last few years at home msn.. nudging everyone online saying happy new year ! haha..getting outof the place at fullerton was a challenge..walk damn long and far..everywhere we see people..took very long to get out...then met keefe and jiali near cityhall area.. then accompanied jia li managed to catch the last train home..and took cab frm amk station.. now back at home ..hahaz... everyone is in a festive mood =] great to see that... im sure 2006 will be a wonderful year for everyone.. especially those who didnt have a great year in 2005 like me =/ im sure things will definitely get better haha..shall go sleep liaoz.. nitez all =] once again happy new year!!!! 2006!!!
time sure past quickly....2 years.. life in njc is over ...sad or happy ? i really dun noe haha
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Friday, December 30, 2005
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Zzzz... i need to start exercising... on 27th december only played badminton with deep for 3 sets... yet now im feeling aches all over me lol .. my ass is cramping too ..my shoulder..my back.. my legs..my hands... and especially my wrist..ouchzz lol no stamina sia.. but all these pain cant be compared to the ones i felt emotionally this year... =/ well anyway... it is in sadness... we value true happiness =] .. tired..i go kun3 liaoz nitez all.. hope everyone had a wonderful xmas
HeNgnuTz|2:22 AM|
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
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christmas is over...
hear all the well wishes from here and there... anyway merry xmas to all =] before i forget....this christmas isnt as fun as before to me..=/ not really very excited about recieving any gifts from anyone... hahaz..cuz me myself dont even know what i really want... talking abt gifts... the only one that i really appreciate most was from my mum haha.. she got me a personalised cap just because i merely mentioned that i wanted one.... anyway.. on xmas eve...went town wif rard deep silin hua brent.. ate at seoul garden.. then later went arn to shop for xmas stuff... haha rard accidentally walked into a piece of glass wall in ARt friend shop lol.. damn funny la.. orchard was damn crowded these days cuz of xmas.. everywhere u see people.. damn sickening haiz..on christmas day itself stayed at home.. haiz. nth to do... so as the day after xmas... only on 27th december.. went school in the morning to play badminton wif deep.. he brought his gf along la.. and kinda like left her at one side while we two are playing... feel quite bad for her also.. it happened to be the ogl camp for the juniors ytd.. looking at them doing the cheering, mass dance and row call.. really reminds me of us last year lol.. the difference is very
obvious.. im sure the rest of the seniors will noe LOL .. the white orientation t-shirt...i dunno how to describe... its FUGGLyyyy lol so glad that our year shirt was much better hahaz =p their mass dance seem more fancy ..but being too cheem may not really turn out well during orientation bah i guess..not everyone will pick up the moves easily and think might be hard to teach the new j1s... but anyway shld just keep my comments to myself bah.. its the juniors that are running the show now not us anymore..but watching them do things really brings back alot of memories... later on in the day.. together wif mel rich deep yeeleng jk shaun met at orchard wisma and cabbed to diana's castle for our council xmas party..BTw thanks rard for organising a great party =] turkey was great haha.. so as the pasta ..also thank di for letting us use her house for this year's party again.. nice meeting her two kinky incest dogs once again lol.. always forever making out and humping infront of the guests =p brother sister summore haha ...
so fast.....the year is coming to an end .. =/
HeNgnuTz|7:22 PM|
Saturday, December 24, 2005
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Finally, after such a long time since start of exams until now, managed to update my blog haha.. made the new skin from scratch and design everything done by me =p with the html thingy help from Yc, derrick and shaunie.. THANKS ALOT =]
havent blog for a very long time ... sighz.. maybe didnt have the mood also..everyday just watching the hands of clock tick by...everything is just so stagnant now... some of my friends already went in ns haha.. wonder how they are doing now... some going in next year jan... but for me and some others.. march or april zzzz... now i just have so much time and i wonder how am i gonna spend them.. used to dread that i didnt have time in the past... well.. grad nite 8th december was cool..but i find it quite ok only bah... highlighted my hair gold..got new shirt and a set of blazer and pant for prom... stayed at hotel rendevous with dc and the rest haha.. play that lame x-men game on ps2... had my first clubbing experience..but it sux man..R&B music.. just dont like lol...alot of smokers la.. damn irritating.. but i wanna go Ministry of SOund...just opened.. haah so anyone interested ? =] then after that went kopitiam eat abit and hang arn till 4 am plus.. then went back hotel to sleep.. hahaz..pity that i didnt have a camera for prom.. damn dumb la.. cant take pics... everyone looked so good on that night =] ...life getting kinda stagnant for me now.. everyday nothing to do.. no plans.. just play maple dota everyday....zzzz... i just wish this year would end quick man.. christmas is coming... and i dont even feel it actually lol..tml going buy xmas gifts wif rard and the rest for the council party exchange.. i dont even know what i really want for christmas... heh.. nothing intangible now perhaps... when i was a kid always wish for toys and other stuff.. as i grew older.. i ask for less and less... lol and now nothing.. just wish for nothing.. i just want peace... no stress.. =/
My life in njc.... year one.. were my best days of my life =] mainly cuz of council haha .. though there was work always... but i enjoyed doing them..and willing to do more for my peers and for the school..thats when i somehow started to like njc.. njc is such an interesting place to be in...the culture is so unique.. and varies year to year...one thing's for sure is that the culture set by us... the 37th council and us 04 batch guys... definitely rock hahaz we made njc more alive and happening... still remember i was in arts class 04A01 for the 1st 3 months lol..everyday just play ... heck studies... then later on switch to triple science and wOOOOoooOO$#@%@ lol can still remember the day i picked up the council form.. decided to run with leon for fun.. haha and both of us made it in =] shiok man.. along wif many fellow josephians.. the start of council.. the start of work lol... starting was abit shaky.. but later on we are strongly bonded together.. dedicated in our work towards making njc a better school...all the events... NDC....TEachers day...Halloween party (this one totally rock !)... open day...ORientation 2005 (LA FaMiGLIA)... and many others... for all who have participated or witnessed these events...sure would agree wif me that njc aint such a stone school afterall..infact more happening than other jcs *ahem like the one opposite us lol ! even our mass dance owns la... still remember year one... we kept doing mass dance everywhere and everyday
in council room...student lounge...student lounge was our 2nd home...everyday camp there..before sch assembly..even after sch assembly go there slack awhile..pon lessons lol..perfect place to hide from teachers and sleep.. do work..discussion...NIrVAna man haha i missed the council room alot...but i missed council more...2004... the best year of my life =] well.. my studies all the while like shit lol ...ever since i stepped in njc.. nvr really felt like studying actually... still remember.. me and pradeep and the rest of the councillors.. always play badminton at the grass patch just outside the student lounge... play during break times... during free lessons.. laugh so much and until we disturbed ppl having lessons and teacher complain and make us stop... still remember the two trees there...leaves were all green..now all fallen... so sad ..but going there sure brings back good old memories...miss the pubstunts... (yeah we rock in making good pubstunts lol ) hmm i guess i've managed to travel and explore the whole of njc already..including the secluded area behind the pe office...need to crawl thru a hole in the fence..quite creepy there ahah ...remember seeing a sofa deep inside a shed like place and alot of shuttlecocks(flew down from gym).... so much memories.. just hope i can remember everything when i leave njc... afterall..the only thing u can bring out of njc.. is just memories =] my life in year 1 njc was definitely a fulfilling one..enjoyed my time.
HeNgnuTz|12:35 AM|
Friday, November 25, 2005
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A's finally ended]]
As said above... gonna find some time to redo my entire blog... zzzz
HeNgnuTz|3:05 PM|
Friday, October 14, 2005
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Prelude of the end]]
This shall be my last entry till the end of As. Time sure passed so quickly, just a blink of the eye, almost two years have passed. Though it may be a short period for some, it seemed never ending to others. Now i only have one obstacle to clear, which is the final A levels. My results so far aint promising at all lol. Ever since i stepped in njc, got into council, never had the mood to study at all. Its just all play and council work. I really liked NJc alot. It is indeed a place with many different faces. Through council, i grew to like njc more. Every work i do, i know is for my school, for my fellow friends and teachers. The sense of satisfaction of accomplishing something for people is incomparable to things you do for yourself. Alot of tears, happiness, moments of disappointment and anger, these were the feelings we bear before in NJc. Two years isnt alot of time, yet it is enough for many things to happen. Remembered what kenny said to us before :"10 years down the road after leaving njc, when u look back, u laugh at our tears, and tear at our laughters". I totally agree with that statement. When we really look back in time, be it happy moments or unhappy times, its still worth remembering and recalling. We learnt from our past mistakes and gain more understanding on how problems arise, so we do our best not to repeat them again. Forgiveness doesnt bring back the past, it only widens our future. Forgetting, that's what many ppl often to. Forget about unhappy things, forget about ppl who have touched ur life or the lives which u have touched. I hate to forget things, i always keep memories in my mind. Anyone in ur life that upset u or angered u, forgetting them may be an option, but do always keep an open mind, and forgive the ppl.
Forgive those who have sinned against u for those u have sinned against will forgive you This way, u will lead a more meaningful life. Anyways, my prelim results : BDEO .....not a very promising one... still remembered i once said i wanted to get all at least C. Well, seems like i'm still badly distracted. There's not much time left for me. But there's no way that i'm giving up hahaz. To all my friends, let us all work hard together =] let all our grudges and unhappiness go and help each other achieve greater heights! Good luck to everyone =] all the best
p.s. anyway the new song on my blog is from final fantasy 7, for those who have played the game may have found it familiar =] enjoy
HeNgnuTz|1:45 PM|
Sunday, October 09, 2005
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there's not much time left to A levels.. yet i'm still quite lost in my studies... crap man.. there's too many things that i still dont know and yet i find that there's not enough time for me to find out... zzzz and dont really seem to have any mood to study...am i really gonna screw my As like this ? =/ haiz...
my dog just lost all her teeth lol....wad the hell..she's getting old...has been wif my family since i was primary 5..she was still a puppy back then hahaz
just got my own atm card made..lol that's damn late la for me...i still havent try out using the card yet haha..dun ask me to treat u =p i dont know how much i have inside my account..
stupid games keep tempting me.. wad the hell...
zz mebe a little pushing from someone would help haahaz
HeNgnuTz|5:00 PM|
Thursday, October 06, 2005
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Towards the end...]]
Finally got all my results for prelims back....zzzz well nothing to be very happy about... definitely not the grades that i wanted and said before.... =/ only bio was ok... got a B...rest all screwed up totally... dunno wtf am i doing.... cant concentrate at all in my studies..too many things running in my mind... some of my teachers already gave up on me... wad the hell..more and more ppl gave up on me.. now its left only me that believe in myself... should be able to cope with that... heh..this two years in njc... i havent been really studying... i dunno why too... well my maths teacher saw through me and approached me...asked why am i not studying... i asked myself too...lol....and he guessed my problem correctly...so observant haha....council gave me hell lot of stress..and this year.. even more from other stuff...its really overwhelming for me... and i screwed up prelims totally... wtf man... now A lvls is next.. i still in quite a daze... trying to get into the mood to study.. if not i seriously gonna screw up my future...alot of bad things happened... at such timing man... wtf was i doing this year....so many things messed up...nobody can take the blame besides myself... heh... its been like a wake up call for me... to start focusing on my exams... and really becoming back to my old self again =] today went to school for bio make up lecture... and settled the nyaa book... yeah.. gonna use this long weekend to start my revision..hope nothing comes in my way... i need all the encouragement i can get... if no.. its ok hahaz i believe my luck is gonna change for good ..from bad this year.. to something good at the end of this year =]shall be my old self again.. as happy as ever ... though i still may be distracted by certain things... try to put them aside...and settle them next time....
HeNgnuTz|5:03 PM|
Saturday, October 01, 2005
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My oWnage study plan lol]]
HeNgnuTz|2:34 PM|
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
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Post prelims]]
wooT! finally managed to change my blog template..haha much better now...yeah anyway... prelims ended last thursday...haiz... when i get back all my results first den i comment on them....tml or wad.... =/
HeNgnuTz|9:43 PM|
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
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its not even half way through prelims yet
anyway wouldnt expect to do well either
but its not too late
well quite abit more to go
dont know why but i find it hard to speak up
i'm scared
goes against what i really want to
but i fear the consequences it might bring when i talk
i must bear responsibility for every word and action
i've caused enough problems and unhappiness already
no more
though its hard for me
for now i just want to concentrate on my studies
i hope i can
feel half dead already
but i'm reviving the other half of me now
be as happy as i used to be
or even better
for myself and my friends
most importantly for the person i care for the most
what's done cannot be undone
there's no ALT F4 function in life
that is what makes certain things more valuable in life
these intangibles we treasure and cherish
Suffered but learnt my lesson
nobody can live alone in this world
that is why there are so many people around us everyday
we need one another to live
a more fulfilling life
so help one another
your friends
make them smile everyday =]
HeNgnuTz|10:58 PM|
Saturday, September 10, 2005
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To change who i used to be ? lol =p sji is simply too good haha
HeNgnuTz|4:28 PM|
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i still love the 37th Feedback Unit... we are just too good man hahaz =] really enjoyed the times together
HeNgnuTz|2:36 AM|
Friday, September 09, 2005
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lol back in the old times.... me in center...on my sides are my cousins =p
HeNgnuTz|12:43 AM|
Thursday, September 08, 2005
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Till after prelims]]
hahaz..i feel much better already...thanks guys =] all my friends.. but kinda late cuz prelims just a few days away...couldnt really concentrate on my studies back then..well there's still time left for me to catch up hahaz.. hope everyone is studying hard ...guess i'll blog only after my prelims...gonna change my template...this one's kinda sad ... change to a more happier one =] good luck to everyone in their exams =]
HeNgnuTz|11:29 PM|